end silent .

And so , today started out my day with a fucked-up mood . Went to school alone since i need some time for myself. Was supposed to go to school with krisha but i was late . Sorry babe . Walked to school and someone called me. Kept rejecting , dont wanna entertain . Being so irritated by it, picked it up and 'blablablaaa' . -.- Hanged up , and received a msg after a few moments. I felt down to pieces. I kept holding the tears back and the phrase of 'be strong mayn, be strong!' kept appearing and circling in my mind. The tears was fully at the brim of eyes till i cant hold any longer, it started to roll down and drip . Everyone who walked past by me gave a look of 'why-the-hell-is-she-crying?' Kept looking down as if the pavement of the road has cracks as tears falls. Kept wiping the tears, still it kept rolling. Cant take it anymore , sat at one bench as i kept reading back the msg that was being sent to me and think . And it add on to my fucked-up mood. Was so fucking pissed , deleted the msg , switched the fucking phone , wipe my tears , pick myself up and walk away .

Reached school , put up a fake smile . Act as if everything was okay when everything is like fucking upside down . Trying to be myself for the day, at least . Was only looking forward for school to end and it did at last . Sort everything out and at least it felt much better .

Thats how suck a love life could be huh .

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This month had been soo fcuking sway , i swear . Wont elaborate why . pfft!
I swear i hate this point of time in my life . So much things going on . Fcuk all these shizzayes . Why cant life be much easier without all these shittxz? urrrrgggh , fcuking irritating humanoids yknow!

Sooooooo , i had been mugging all along for today .
I swear i fcuking hate exams. Who loves exams? Huh huh huh!? looool . kay diam . But everything is for the sake of my future plus my parents . So i bet it will be paid up . Struggle now , enjoy later . Woooo . Confident siah berbual . HAHAHAA

Its just 7pm now and my house looks all dark . Like as if its midnight now . Plus im alone now . wtf! Im scared right now and idk why . HAHAA . okay fcuk .

gotta mug again . urgggggh , dickheads . -_-

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AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
kay hot! Arent adam just sooo fcuking hot? heheh
*melts*

okay . Didnt attend school today . Woke up late. Haha! I bet eshaa gonna kill me tmrw for not coming to school today . HAHA! bitchyyyyyyyyyyy . So literally , yestrday was the second month anniversary . HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABYYYYYYYYYY! :D nyeheheheh . Okay, soo wtv it is we're gonna catch some movie today after he's done with school . weeeee~

uhh , mis-year coming . Fcuk!
Im soo not prepared yet . I still need more time to cover-up all my subjects for revision . Dead shitcxsz maynnnn! okay , chilly milly . Gonna put in more effort and fcuk all those shizzys and get good grades . That my aim . woooo , okay great .

And oh yes!
I cant wait for june holidaaaaaaaaays to come! ahahahah
i know its still a looong way till the june hols arrive. -_- but wtv it is , im feeling soo eggggggcited for it . Wanna knw why why why?!? Cause imma sleepover at bestflencxsz crib for four days straight . Woohooo! Gonna slumber party all night . HAHAHA . kaaaaay, shuuuush!

Chalooooobeteh! Gotta studystudystudy now .
Crack heads now!

Im feeling so fcuking bored right now.
Im just waiting for the return of bby frm kl . gaaaahhhh , miss him soo damn much siaaaaah! O:
uh , 3mre days to anniversary . weeeehooooo:D
haha!

Okay , i just came back from window-shopping with mom and siblings at tampiness one .
Can anyone tell me why the hell the mall is called tampiness one?
Why not two? or three? or four .. ? Guess, no other names they called think of to call that mall?
Godddd , weird O:
Anyway , it was sooo fcuking paaaaaaaaaaaack yknw! Eeeeeerrrgh , i hate going to places which is packed with humans . Goddd , like there's a late-night party going on. Tsk3 . Got some things, barely shopped , not in the mood you see . Pfffffffft! Anddddd , seriously, i ate alot today . Like alooooot! Tummehz add 5pounds . kay, fake . Prangai gemuk niari , HAHA . shuuuuuuuussh!

okay , im tired tired tired .
When the hell is boyfie gonna come back? -_-
bbbbb , come back faaaast! aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! O:

boring + annoyed + hungry + sleepy + lazy = (Y)
my goddddddd . my weekends have been such an ass. Fcuking boring . -_-
Much apologies to ruzz and idul for not meeting yguys . I'll make a day for you two alright!
In awhile, going out with family . Gonna go shopping spreeeeeeee!
woohoooooo .

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aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!
kay, stfu . -_-

Sometimes, i just dont get you. Youre blaming everything to yourself and claiming youre such an ass , but youre not. Partly its my fault too. Sometimes, you think too deeply and leads to negative thoughts. Just enjoy what we have now and what we're in now.

Devil is around. Devil can lead you to a big trap. Devil can mislead you. Devil can lead you to a mistake. You'll enjoy when the mistake starts and dont realize its a wrong take. When youre done and the devil speaks of the mistake ends, you'll then realize it is a mistake to do that and regreted. The goddamn devil will wash its hand and leave up to you for the guilts and regrets. Repent is what left for one to do. But will they? Since they knew their mistake is much enjoyable but its hard to repent back again. "There's still more time left in my life, i'll repent later." Much of it, what if the next day you die? Or the next hours, minutes , seconds? Its a wake up call for me. Get down to it!

Yesterday, went to serangoon garden for some project work .
We had to survey the foreigners and the resident living there. It was a pretty tiring day . wooooosh . But still i had fun .

Nah nah , picsxzsxz! :D

Today was pretty much boredom , i guess?
urgggggggh! Had school as normal. Had no mood for the whole day , like seriously. A fake smile was being put up the whole day. Mood swing i guess?

Head back home straight after school. Didnt went for IFD rehearsal due to smt. Fuckshit . Had my nap for awhile and met bby after that. Studied together at library . Something happened and blablablaaaaaah . I dont even wish to talk about it here. So stfu all!

The best way to lose your fats is to jog everyday without fail. Plus, go for an diet, do not eat fast-food/ junkies food/ fry foods/ foods that contain much fats like chicken!

Wanna see a sample?

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
HAHAA , see see! How fckuing skinny is my bestflend now! omgggggg , jealous oi! Huaaaaak~
Tell you, she's so soo sooo soooo sooooo skinny now . Like seriously! urgggggggggh , raraaaaaaa! Comeeee, take my fats! Muahahahha , kidding . Whatever it is, she's still my bestfriend and i love her . Muahsmuahsmuahs! hahaha . Anyway , i was texting Zul now and he was pretty shock to see the drastic change in rara. &so he claimed that rara could be a fitness teacher when she grow up. HAHAHAAAA! Fitness teacher or whaaaaat!xD

And oh yes!
I was touched when i read naddy's post . aawww, thanks babe! Thankyou so much babe fr the wish. Thankyou fr everything and i appreciate our friendship. No need to give me present la kay! wish is enough, heeeee! Lotsa lovvvveee , muahsmuahs!:D

HAHAHA , gambar zaman extention siah! looooooooool
Anywaaaaay, i just came back from bby's place. :D
I had soo much fun with him today, heeeee! Disturbed him all day long. Huahuahua^-^
love you b!

okay, im tired . -_-

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I feel so weird today. Idk why .
No mood for anything. Mid-year coming like sooooo soon! Fcuk urgggggh . -_-

Everything seems so quiet . So silence .
Weird tho. I feel dissapointed over some things . urgggggh , fcuk .

Anyway , im in school now. -_-

Three last words ; I am upset .

Ehhhhh, suppppcxsz ass-es!
HAHA . kay, im back to blogginggggggg!

HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO ME!
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO ME!
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO ME!
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO ME!
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO ME!

HAHAHA .
kay, muke tak tahu malu! looool .
Okay , my bday was pretty great . Yeaaaahhh^-^
But still, i prefer last year and idk why . hahaha! I could still recall i celebrated my b'day with my gorgeous ladies, my another peeps, school friends and family too . It was pretty a blast bday fr last year to be compared with this year . But nevertheless, i still thanks for those who wish me, for the gifts and surprises . But ultimately, thanks to boyfie who made my day on my birthday . (:

Okay, lets start off with friday .
On friday . i met rara bestflendddddd! YIPPYYAAAAAY!:D
So meet up at Dhoby ghaut and head to the mall. Wanted to catch some movies but the tix were sold out. We arrived late. Haha , fcuk! Heck care, we did some rounding of window-shopped, ate, talk about stuffs , catch things up and all.

I bought a wavy-tube dress . Wooooo, im lovin' it! HAHA
Headed to penin since rara wanted to get baseball shirt . Yadiyadiyaaaaa . Went to parliament house right after to chill out and we camwhoreeeeeed like fcuk! HAHA

Right after, we called it a day . I went to meet my family for dinner while she head down to jurong . Thanks for the day bestyyyy! Eventhough we're arent aint that close like we used to , but still i appreciate your accompany and all . What matters the most, youre still my bestyyy and gue sayang lu! HAHAAA

For saturday , i had chalet for a day.
The chalet was pretty great yo! Party all night with family+cousins+friends! wooooooooh! Bby wanted to make a surprise for me , but everything went haywire. Hahaha , sorry boyfieee! Much apologies to boyfie and haikal (yknw, i knw what they dnt knw) !

(Theres more pictures on saturday but im too lazy to post here. -.-!)

On sunday , was supposed to go out with family and party with cousins all night again. But i cancelled all the plans just for the sake to spent more time with baby. But everything turns out different . Hahaha! Went to bby's place arnd evening , met his mom like the first time . HAHA , omg she's fcuking pretty pls? Haha! So yeah, umairah(kay, idk how to spell , haha!) was sooo fcuking cute yknw! Eeeeeergh , feel like pinching her chubby cheeks siah! hahaha . okok, chill. So yeah . Blablablaaah , arnd 8+ left there and was supposed to go visit his nephew who's being warded at CGH but somehow it was pretty late alrdy so we just went for dinner .

At arnd 10+ , i called it a day .
A day with bby's family . HAHA :D

blabbbbs!

lovelies .
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